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Oh, Ive also been taking the best care ever of your Poppy sister 24/7. 34 and being pregnant can suck it. Today, while I sat in the room full of absolute brilliance everywhere, I noticed there were 2 things missing. I cried after I dropped your brothers off at school, I cried over every single Taylor Swift song that came on the C.D. . This pregnancy/growing your baby sister is hard freaking work. This is just the beginning. This led to me bawling on the phone. We have had those picked out for a long time. Woody called me from the plane and told me what had happened. I hate you. Lay down again. Sweet dreams. We WILL get to the White House to make them fight harder for our kids who are dealing with cancer. Ive been trying to get us all ready for our second Christmas, without you. I am allowing myself to have about an hour a day in bed, not the entire freaking day. So much. There happiness is how I judge good days now. She did not make me feel like the crazy person that I was feeling like which was so nice of her to do. Ireland Ronan. The entire tree is going to be blue and white. I told him how he was pretty much the only person I listened to in this life anymore. I love the way we gather around our kitchen table, somebody always brings food, and we get down to business. I left there, feeling like my heart was going to explode from the pain of missing you. If it would have shown up as something bigger and abnormal, they would have seen it and told me. My eyes started to tear up and I just said, Because I dont know where my child is. That is how I feel. A lot of time at home, which is still hard for me. The way I run myself ragged, Im surprised it took this long. It was official. You are making so many amazing things happen. She is one of the busiest women on the planet, but I so appreciated her taking the time to talk to me about anything and everything. You see, I am not only doing this to make some money for your foundation, but I am also doing this to help us get through May. NYC with our Fairy RoMo is my paradise. I worry about it with your brothers, too. I wont tell you everything they did to him, because I feel like I have to protect you. Im sorry for everything. But I think about my friends daughter, and the fact that at her age, she knew what was happening. It cannot be real because it is too awful. I love you, Liz. I decide to start today with, enough is enough. Liam chirped up that there was a 10% chance that is was not a girl. Its bullshit and something no parent should ever have to experience. I look forward to hearing her speak tomorrow. Laughing as you would pick all the flowers around our neighborhood from other peoples yards, thinking you were so naughty for doing so. I know you know how much we all need her. We talked about New York for a bit. I need to get in some hours working on this book. But he was stolen from me by childhood cancer. Dont get me wrong, I am grateful for the opportunity, but its still very difficult. Not really. But because I know what happens when I listen to that song. To make sure good things continue to go on, because of their baby? SO much that I somedays think this still cannot possibly be real. For that, I will forever be so thankful. I feel that way about everyone who hears about you. It was an emergency last night. I could describe him in a thousand different ways. My heart will forever be broken in a way that is just not repairable. Are you laying with your child, as he takes his last breaths? I hurt badly from this and I only get to feel this on a small scale compared to you. I finally got your daddy on the phone. I understand. I feel like its taken a long time for the 4 of us to find our rhythm again here, without you. Today, my tears were more happy. I told them I was. Who knows what I am getting myself into, but Ill never know unless I try. She has a Ronan. He has saved my life and for that, I have you to thank. A water for me. Now that Ive met you, youre in. It was like I was let into the most exclusive club that ever existed. No need for bullshit or pretending. I actually got nervous as I went to not shake her hand, but to give her a hug instead. The biggest reason of all. Watch out childhood cancer! I thought I was fine tonight after I left and I dont know what happened. The bloody hell worst day of my life. After I left my friend, I ran to the store. It brought life, hope, color and reassurance to those still fighting. This is the Captain Rex that will go under your tree at PCH this year. I cannot take the things down from your room, only to fill them with something new. Starr was a mainstay for numerous wrestling territories throughout the 1970s and 80s, capturing almost three dozen championships throughout his career [4] including two reigns as NWA World Junior . I feel like that, all the time. Macy. I am going to take the day that you left me and rename it and make it the name that it deserves. It seems to completely throw them all off. Thank you for never forgetting my little guy who continues to inspire you daily. He asked me why I looked so perplexed. Please let him be one of the reasons that you will work harder. I am not doing anything else. I am dying to see our Fairy RoMo, as well. I miss you. Would it be too much to ask for the happiness of the world to just go on vacation for a day? He deserved better. I could tell your Nana was a bit sad about this but I just said, Mom, I dont know how or what I am going to be feeling and I just want to be able to be, without having the pressure of having to fake like I am feeling one way, if I am not. She just gave me a squeeze and told me, Of course, honey. Anything That Has To Do With You and New YorkCity. Melissa. Ive been telling myself all day this is somebodys elses life and not my own. We have about one idea for a first name. Nothing out of the ordinary happened, but before I knew it, I was sobbing so hard it was all I could do to make it to my car before my tears formed puddles at my feet and I just slowly drowned. on Bye Bye Little Sad House! The next thing I knew, this baby started talking and saying, Ronan, Ronan, Ronan, over and over again. Beauty. Everything feels extra heavy, hard, sad, and the slightest things take up every ounce of energy I have just to get through the day. on Not a life full of beauty but one full of beautiful momentsinstead, on From what I can see here, it looks like you are having a baby. Thanks to all of the amazing people you are just throwing my way, thanks to this blog, and thanks to the most kind hearted, generous people in the world, I now have a new home. We went to dinner. I was wearing my most favorite Frye Cowboy boots that I have had for about 7 years. Nothing could have prepared me for what it is like to be pregnant, after losing you. At least that is the vibe I got. I told him I need at least 30 more years of him here. Rise and ShineInsomnia! Dr. Schwartz calmly talked about when she could induce me and told me that she would not let me go to my due date because she knows the fear I have. You know how I am about just letting things, happen when they are supposed to. My week has kind of gotten away from me. The combination of your beauty and my sadness is more than enough, baby doll. Not a lot has been going on so I dont have a ton to write about. Stop making everything so much more complicated than it really is. Ive noticed myself starting to have a really hard lately. How do I even put into words, who he is? Peach Pie, Apple Pie, Cherry Pie yes please. Especially not in this day and age when kids die from cancer, due to lack of funding alone. You are so right. And now has to stay here and is expected to go on with this so called life. It was the Ambien that knocked me into a black coma of oblivion, not the soothing words of everything is going to be alright that I needed to hear. Shes very eager which I like. I think I told you that I tried to prep, with Dr. JoRo about this whole getting pregnant thing. I will not ever forget the way you were treated like a lab rat by supposedly one of the best doctors in the world. I cannot keep up with everything that is going on and life seems to running at an outrageous speed. Its o.k. These are kids. Tears all over. As always, I am thankful for you and that I am your mama. They make me want to take on the world because I know I can change this. I cannot keep up with everything that is going on and life seems to running at an outrageous speed. Its about helping other people as much as I can and in anyway that I can in this totally fucked up world where I cannot even see Christmas lights properly because they are always so blurry from my falling tears. I dont remember that, but apparently I wrote it so it must be true. You have to be mentally and physically exhausted, sweetheart. A coffee for him. Those are not problems. I chose to escape instead. Im hard on myself and fuck, I just plain miss this. It actually makes me laugh. Fuck. You can see the link for the website here. I had to tell him I was pregnant with this baby, over the phone. I honestly still cannot believe you are gone and that I dont get to chase you around anymore. Im not a researcher. This is the end of your story for tonight, baby doll . I will be just as happy if this is a boy, too. I no longer love the luxury of not having things to do. Because they never gave up on the you and me part of this. I can do a city, all alone, and badass, any other month, but not this month. He always knows best. I love you. I know what part of our connection is. It is her birthday today. Of course I said yes and that is pretty much all I did. O.k. As frustrated and sad as I am, this just motivates me more to continue this fight. I wiped my tears away and let him tell me it was going to be alright. I was getting ready for our little board meeting and I should have suspected something.. but I just chopped it up to being tired. Thanks, J- for the break, amazing lunch and your dazzling smile. Im angry, sad, and feel really let down. Fuck. I came home from the Hamptons, as fast as I could, waited as patiently as I could to get to the hospital and plop a big fat kiss on that old mans forehead and look into his sparkly eyes. I woke up soon after that, totally freaked out by the baby in my dream, talking. I dont fit well into that world anymore, but I love our hostess so for her, I was totally game. I feel disconnected from everything and everyone. How could my baby be just fucking dead? I would rather jump out of an airplane, 10 times then have to walk out of PCH with your Captain Rex costume that you will never wear again. It wouldnt have been this way, if you were still here. Grief, reality, Inferno Fuckwad Bob, were all there waiting for me. Everything seems heightened to the max. Nobody was there. on Thankful for the opportunity to continue talking about Ronan, Taylor, childhood cancer, and the horrifically hard world of bereavedparents. They urged me to go. I saw your Sparky yesterday. Well, thats the world I live in, Ronan. Just the usual? he asked. I told your brothers once again, how I really want to name this baby girl, Poppy. Bye Bye Little Sad House! We Have a New Home! - ROCKSTAR RONAN I know he will keep her safe. I tried to get to sleep at a decent hour last night but my achy body and the thoughts of you, were consuming me. Last year I probably would have said I was thankful for nothing. It seems to be filled with all the wrong things, the wrong people hurting others, the wrong everything. I must have sat and stared at that picture for a good five minutes. Starting from before you diagnoses to the months after. To say I am beyond disappointed, is an understatement. I know Ive been quiet. I ended up walking a bit too but I was fine with that. Our sad little house where I often work from our dining room table, our kitchen table, and even my bed. Because it is simply not true. We had a little debate that I took a stance on and refused to back down. It is the pieces of pretend that give me a break from our reality. A lot is wrong with me, actually. Its too much, especially at this point in your life., Me: But I always do these things alone. Back when you were healthy and here. Next month. Its fucking depressing, to say the least. I love you. You look pretty today. You know in my obsessive exercising eating nothing world before I was pregnant, I would have never touched a pie. He asked if it was hard for meto bein there with her. Or so the outside world seems to think. This is the girl, who is fighting with every single thing that I have, because I dont have a choice, unless I want to curl up and die, while letting cancer take EVERYTHING away from me. She made me smile so for that moment in time, I was o.k. Of course I am happy to see them but its you I want to see the most and you are never there, waiting for me with the 3 of them like you should be. How could anyone look at your face, and not be broken-hearted?

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